I have experience being the highest man alive, without using drugs. Being bipolar is a gift I have been given. Last week I was terribly depressed, but that was because I’m not living to my greatest potential. I have been lacking courage. Fear of responsibility, fear of success, just fear of anything related to moving forward.
You have to say fuck your fears and do acts of courage. More pressure, more success. In cadets in 2012, I was the drill sergeant of the camp. The reason I was so good in that role is because I wasn’t afraid of pressure. Before I had my first manic episode, I was fearless. I had delusional levels of confidence. To exercise courage, you need to have faith that you will be good win or lose.
I’m single in my 30’s because I haven’t exercised courage. All the opportunities I missed out on. But when I swung the bat win or lose I had a high from acting on the courage. A shortcut to being high is taking more risks. More courage is actually the gateway. When you face your fears, you get to a point where you realize fear was fake evidence appearing real. I have fear of success. But I need to face this fear instead of wasting my potential.
Play the game of life at the high stakes table.
I’d rather lose huge than win small.
The thing is fear is the fastest way to a life of regret and missed opportunity.
The game is supposed to be a simulation to see if you’ll choose fear or courage. Acting from courage is the fastest way to move up in life. Eventually you become fearless. My life is about making those acts of courage daily. So pile on the responsibility and the pressure. Eventually I’ll just see it as a normal. There’s an infinite amount of levels to this game called life.
Stop waiting for permission and act on your dreams now!
To your success,
Angus